It’s been quite a long while since I’ve posted anything to this site. Too much going on in my real life to take time to put it down into words. Cirrhosis, Hep C, Renal Cell Carcinoma, COPD, Seizures, and the list goes on & on.  What do you do when there is so many different diseases that  the doctors don’t even know what symptoms belong to what disease. Which is complicating the others?  Simply, they give up and toss you to the winds and fate. That is the truth. Lots of medications which also contribute their own side effects. What a up and down journey my life has become. I struggle and struggle and still keep going. But what or who decides that one’s life is easy and anothers is nothing but trials, tribulations and pain.  Thankfully I learned from my Father that you just keep on grinning and bear with it. BUT,  life can be at times so very, very exhausting and tiring.  I know that there is others that can relate with their own life paths in this similar vein.  Anyhow, awake and up and can’t sleep. Silence surrounds me and I’m in my own little cocoon. I miss social interaction with people that are healthy. If you are sick, they seem to fade by the wayside. They do not want to be reminded of their own mortality.  Anyhow…surgery awaits me in the future to remove my tumors and to see how far the cancer has spread beyond my kidneys. God give me grace to vault over this next hurdle and come out relatively normal on the other side…..once again. Thank you for your grace in the past. I am not a viligant Christian. I have too many mixed views of all different religions and have developed rather my own philosophy in this regards. So, listen and have mercy on my soul.  I’m here for the long haul. How ever long that may be.  Take care all. *HUGS*

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